Weigh in

So I am sitting here in tears. Completely overwhelmed by the scale this morning.

And not in a good way.

I am up 3 pounds this week. Isn't that awesome?

I almost refused to post this. But I am keeping my promise of honesty. And I'm trying to be normal about it. Is there such a thing as normal weight loss/weight issues?

Now I'm trying to break it all down logically. Or rationalize it. So here goes.

Every month I have a visitor. Which, if you are female, you do too.

For me, this visitor brings with it about 5 pounds in water retention. This visitor doesn't care that I ate super good all week. The visitor doesn't care that I stayed away from sugar and simple carbohydrates. The visitor just comes and goes, leaving 5 pounds in her wake.

So that's my first problem. My visitor will be here any day now. The second problem is this stupid ankle. The ankle that is still swollen and in pain. The ankle that will allow no exercise at all. Does anyone know of any cardio that doesn't require feet? And don't say swimming, I don't swim.

So that is my hope. Because logically it doesn't make sense for me to have gained 3 pounds with the way I've been eating. Seriously, I'm not even exaggerating when I say that everything has been above reproach. So it has to be water. And I am hoping beyond hope that next week reflects the water content in my body going back to normal.

I was going to talk about my favorite way of eating today. But honestly, I am so disheartened right now that I no longer feel like it. I will save that for tomorrow. Is that ok?

Because even though I know that none of this makes sense, and that my body will right itself after my period is over, I still can't help but be depressed, you know?

But amazingly, I don't feel like downing a carton of ice cream or eating my weight in chocolate. So at least that is a good thing. And right now I need anything positive to get me through the week.

Signing off.